Inner Healing

“I do not understand my own actions [I am baffled, bewildered]. I do not practice or accomplish what I wish, but I do the very thing that I loathe [which my moral instinct condemns].” Romans 7v15 (Amplified)

Can you believe it? This is our beloved apostle Paul sharing intimately with us his personal struggle. My mind cannot help but to compare myself with him. If Paul had this ongoing struggle, how will I ever be free of my pitiful weaknesses? Paul repeats himself four verses later, “For I fail to practice the good deeds I desire to do, but the evil deeds that I do not desire to do are what I am [ever] doing.”

It is my personal experience through my short years of prayer ministry, that every breathing individual has this struggle. Just like Paul, no one has been able to sidestep or completely overcome this inner battle between our new born again nature and our old sin nature. Paul was obviously fully aware of his struggle. In the original Greek, Paul uses the word ‘ginooskoo’, which means I approve not. He is clearly saying that although he may do an evil thing, he does not approve of himself doing it or of the deed itself.

This struggle that Paul confesses to us is an area of great condemnation to Christians. He obviously recognizes this as he addresses it in the following verse: “There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.” Romans 8v1(King James). Through all these verses, Paul goes to great lengths to explain to us that this struggle comes from our fallen nature and that our Father God is fully aware of it. Therefore, He made away in it, not around it, by the cross, whereby we can still be intimate with Him. The walk to overcome this ensuing battle is the process of becoming Christ-like. The more we become Christ-like, the more the Christ-likeness puts to death the old nature.

This process of becoming like Christ is the process of transformation. Every Christian must address the issue of transformation in his own life. We cannot avoid it, for as born again spirit-filled men and women of God, we are called to become Christ-like. Apostle Paul said in Romans 12v2 (NIV), “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” The word transformed here is the Greek word ‘metamorphoo’, which means to change into another form. Morphe speaks of an inward expression of change. Paul is speaking here to the need of complete change to the inward person, which when submitted to the power of God will be evident in the outward expression of our character and behaviour.

In many streams of Christianity we are taught that this transformation is an immediate completed action when one is born again. Note that Paul speaks this word metamorphoo (transformed), in the present imperative active voice (a continuous and repeated action). This simply means there is a directive to apply ourselves to this ongoing process in a continuous and repeated action with emphasis on the words continuous and repeated. We have all heard the expression “It is under the blood” with the inference following that there is no need to go back into our woundedness and dig things up – that it is finished and should be forgotten. Clearly, Paul does not agree and takes great emphasis in chapters 7 and 8 to give personal testimony of the ongoing struggle between his new nature and his old nature. Would we dare suggest that Paul is not born again?

Being forgiven does not necessarily mean our behaviour will change; it only presents the opportunity for further healing in our lives.

1 John 1v9, “If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just (true to His own nature and promises) and will forgive our sins [dismiss our lawlessness] and [continuously] cleanse us from all unrighteousness [everything not in conformity to His will in purpose, thought, and action].” (Amp)

Please take to heart that it is not our old nature that is being healed. Rather, it is the realm of our soul – that is our mind, will and emotions. Our old nature is being put to death not healed. It is our soul that is being transformed, healed. Inner healing and transformation speak of the same work with in our being; both are the ongoing work process of Holy Spirit in us.

The born again experience of salvation is not the completion of our transformation. Rather, it is the beginning of it. Being born again positions us through justification and sanctification to enter into the process of transformation, – a process wherein our positional perfection in Jesus must be worked out experientially.

To ignore transformation as a process, is to become like the Galatians: striving to behave according to the standards and rules laid out by the law. Here, there can be no intimacy with God as our all-forgiving, always with us, loving Father.

As good as this God-given law is, it was never given to bring us into intimacy with God. Rather, it was given to make known to us what would cause life to go well or not go well for us – literally a distinctive line between blessings and cursings.

Inner healing is not about getting rid of our problems. It is about being reconciled to our heavenly Father. True inner healing can only take place in relationship with Father God, through Jesus. Any other motive or driving force will only lead us into replacing one ungodly thought with another.

Truly God designed every human being to be Christ-like. He created us to be in an intimate love relationship with Him. Our purpose is not to serve Him. Servanthood is a fruit of being in love with Him. God is love. Our purpose is to be in a two-way love relationship with Him. Anything else falls short of what God has for us. Inner healing is simply the process of removing the self-established walls that stand in the way.